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♥ 2 DAYS MORE
Haiz.. When the days are counting down, it get much more slower.. 2days become 48hrs, 48hrs become 2880mins, 2880mins become 172800sec.. Numbers are always to be at large.. But nevertheless i'm still excited for the day u'll come back my love.. I took 6days of offs to spend the week with u.. We can go movies, shoppings n mostly to ourselves.. hehe.. So yeah.. I'm still counting down.. Can't really wait.. Its killing me to the core.. Nur, I'm sorry abt yesterday.. Forgive me for my mistakes over the year.. I promise to make changes.. Changes where both of us were when we started out.. I love u so much sayang.. See u on the 19th.. Muacks!!



♥ A FATHER'S GRIEF
On the 15th suppose to be my off day but damn it got to standby at work due to insufficient manpower.. Only got my relief at 1640hrs.. There goes my plan to work full day for my part time work.. Bye2 $40.. So that's not the moral of th story.. Well, looks like my Sergeant's son got his retribution for not listening to his words.. He got into an accident again.. The first had cost him a broken neck and lose one of his kidney.. Now, as heard it cost him a broken leg.. The morning call from my Sergeant's wife, had made him distraught after that.. Well, that's the caused for me to standby.. Honestly, I felt that this serve his son right.. After listen most of the time how much trouble my Sergeant's son had make, well this is a retribution.. But parents will still be parents.. No matter how much trouble their child make, they will still stay by their child's side in times of difficulty.. This is his second wake up call.. I wonder how many does it takes to make him realized..



♥ 5 DAYS TO GO
Its 14th of February 2009.. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY MY LOVE.. Its very sad that we can't spend the day together.. But its ok.. I'm looking forward to the day when u come back on the 19th.. That will be my very special day.. 5 more days to go.. I can't wait for that day my love.. I really do.. That will be our special day.. The day our love reunite.. For now i've to be even more patience.. I love u so much my fiancee.. So i've cancelled out my trip to Penang to celebrate the return of u my love.. Now i really can't wait.. Haiz.. Couldn't the day pass any faster..



♥ BORED!!
Haiz.. I'm damned bored.. I'm waiting for u to come back honey.. I'm bored.. The time is killing me of boredom.. The days seems to pass very damn slow.. It pass even more slowly now.. At work as usual, boring.. Can never concentrate.. I'm like lost in this world.. Nothing seems to be right or close to being right.. When is it going to be right.. Ur departure are at a great loss for me.. I need u.. To touch u.. To feel u.. I'm longing for that.. But i've to practice more patience.. Honey.. I really miss u.. I've longed to do what i feel.. Pls be here soon.. I need u.. Muuuacks!!



♥ WHY WHY WHY
Why do we have to quarrel again.. Doesn't u think i had enough? All the dreams i had which led me to be shaken even after i've waken up from it.. All the time i felt lost when u're away.. All those words n feeling i feel towards u which come sincerely from my heart.. I'm feeling miserable now.. I really feel miserable.. God pls help me.. When i cry, let those tears dried up during my sleep.. If i bleed, let those blood dried by itself.. My life had never been fair.. God pls bring me back to your righteous.. Show me the right way..



♥ The Dream..
Is it due to lack of sleep or that i miss u so much honey.. Yesterday, i had a weird and a bad dream.. Both in one dream.. This is how it goes.. In the dreamt i was in Hai Sing.. I dunno why but i was in the school uniform.. As i were in school in the past, i was the same in the dream.. WEIRD! Then i went to Downtown East.. When i walk to the McDonald's, i tot i saw a glimpes of u with ur sister.. Then i was thinking, " Weren't u in Penang? ".. So i approached..
When i asked how come u are in s'pore n u didn't call me.. U kept quite.. U acted as though i didn't talk to u or even u didn't know me.. Ur sister was juz looking at me as though she want to say something.. Then u walk away.. I followed u but u juz ignore me.. But ur sis was the one whom comfort me.. SO WEIRD!! So u left.. I kept calling u but u didn't pick up my call.. Then this msg came in, "They are like me when they were at my age".. I couldn't take the pressure.. Its like that time when we quarrelled.. I felt that as though i was getting off from where i sat but in fact i was waking up from my sleep.. And the WEIRD thing is that I am really standing.. First thing i did, i tried to call u, but ur hp was off.. Then i checked the msg.. There were no such msg.. Then only it come to my senses that its was only a dream n u're still overseas.. I felt relieved.. But i coud still remember the msg.. Who are 'they' meant in the msg? Is the msg juz a random or there's something i have to look into at? The dream had shaken me.. I wish u're here to comfort me sayang.. I really miss u so much..



♥ Her Call..
Haiz.. As the days past, its getting tougher for me to endure this lonesome.. I wonder if its only me alone facing the problem or she's feeling the same too.. But yesterday night she called.. I was enlightened when i saw the number.. We didn't had a long talk.. But sadly it start off with a misunderstanding.. I've to confess to her how i felt each day.. Even by keeping myself busy each day, couldn't get my mind off even a bit.. That's how much i've missed her.. I'm like a restless soul.. Haiz.. To date, im still left with 12days before going to Penang to meet her.. I've been always looking forward for that trip.. Well, i guess that's all about it.. I miss u my love.. I really miss u so much.. Love u..



♥ Another Day
Haiz.. Juz came back from Mobilisation Briefing.. Damned.. A waste of time.. But get to meet old frenz from camp.. Yesterday night I went to meet up with my bike group frenz @ KTM.. Two things i saw that give me a sore in the heart.. First, all these 'MAKCIK n PAKCIK' dangdut.. I don't understand, at their age ( i think we can call them nenek or datuk ), can spend their time enjoying with only god knows who they are with.. I mean shouldn't they be doing something meaningful.. Or is it lack of socialization which led them to this at the late age.. I mean its their life i wouldn't want to be a KAYPO.. Next, a couple of guys from my bike group they brought their gf, fiancee or spouse.. Seeing them happily together give a pain in my heart.. Not that i didn't approve of them or jealous, its juz that i miss my fiancee so much.. Even Bart was like asking why i didn't bring Anisah.. Told him she over at Penang.. Told him that while the guys riding up to Mersing, I'll be riding up to Penang to meet her.. It seems that everybody knows my intention of riding up.. To meet the person whom i love so much.. Well that's about all.. Left @ 1.30am then head home straight.. Then this morning report back to camp @ 7.30am.. Now head for bed b4 going off to work.. I miss u baby_bam.. Miss u so much..



♥ Bowling Alley
Baby, here's a photo during our bowling match..
Haha.. U can nvr beat me.. Its only i didn't play properly..
Hehe.. Don't worry.. There will be a chance for u to beat me.. U
could play well that day.. But its me who change the score around.. I
can't wait to have another bowling session with u.. I'll wait til u come back then
we can go for bowling with my family again.. I LOVE U..



♥ I MISS HER SO MUCH
It had been 6 days since she left.. Everyday time seems to pass ever slowly.. Only the days i'm counting b4 i could meet her again.. I miss her hugs, her kisses, her touch, her lips, her hair and her beautiful face.. I've long to hug her, to kiss her, to touch her.. Only in dreams i could imagine that.. Two wks more to go b4 i leave for Penang n three wks b4 her return.. Sad to say all that seem to take a dreadful long time eah day.. Today, she left for KL.. Damned!! I can't be online with MY FIANCEE.. Haiz... Why can't it make things easier for the both of us.. Well i guess this is a test.. A test where we have to learn to control the desires for each other.. Being far is not easy.. But our hearts still stays as one.. Nur, i miss u so much.. I really can't wait for my trip to Penang.. I'll see u soon my love.. Lots of kisses.. muuuuuacksss!!



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♥ A DAY AFTER WORK
Yesterday night shift at work wasn't as bad as the 1st day my baby left for Penang.. She called me n talk for at least an hour.. I felt so relieved.. If not i've been restless b4 she called..
We kept updating about our daily activities.. Then she told me she juz got back from bbq.. I wished i could join her.. They got firework n all.. Haiz.. I miss the fun.. But i hope i'm able to join u there soon my love.. Niwae, after my full time work, i'm off to part time work again.. Well, today we're one man short.. only two persons to handle with the making of pizzas, delivery, stock taking.. Lucky the two of us are experience riders.. So i do the delivery.. The fastest.. Luck is in my way.. There's no order when i was left alone for 2hrs.. Damned.. The night shift riders always come late.. That's about it .. Hmm.. Look like i'm coming to Penang early baby.. I think 19th i'll set off for Penang.. Well i hope i'm able to w/o any objection coz i really want to spend time with u honey.. Well i hope i cud stay over ur place during my early stay there.. Can't wait now for the day.. Coz i miss my baby so much.. I love u baby.. Muacks!!!



♥ I MISS U ALREADY
Haiz.. Yesterday @ 1425hrs we parted our ways.. Had a good hug while ppl around are watching.. Non of us give a damned.. Baby, I'll miss that.. I head home feeling low.. Now i'm alone here waiting.. Back dated to the past 2wks hadn't been a good time for the both of us.. We were at our tense arguements which results to a stupid thing i've done to myself.. Nvr knew why i do it too.. It all happens n ended.. But i'm looking forward.. To the day i'll get to see MY BABY again.. To reunite, to feel the warmth of each other being close, to hug, to kiss, to say I LOVE U when our eyes meet.. 18days more it takes.. But time are passing slowly ever n i'll nvr give up waiting.. For my loves are only meant for u.. I MISS U BABY!!!